about me. <3

I'm young, restless and a little different. Not at all average, but there's so much more to me, than just what meets the eye. I'm all about having a good time, and meeting new people. I have horrible trust issues. I hate liars, backstabbers and secrets. I care way too much, and it always bites me in the ass. I don’t hold grudges. I wouldn't change who I am for anything in this world. I am who I am, take it or leave it! I've got lovers and haters; either way, they're all defining me to be who I was always meant to be, and they're making me a stronger person. I've been to hell and back, a few times. But this year has been the most crucial, and has truly turned me into a whole new person. Everyday I'm making mistakes and every day I'm learning. I'm a different person, for the better, and if you can't accept that, then that’s your loss. I'm done dealing with the people that don’t care, and I've dropped several along the way; for the better and for the worst. I've been through a lot this past year, I've learned to love, I've learned what it is to be loved, I've been hurt, I've hurt others, I've learned that nothing lasts forever, and I've learned to let go, but mostly, I've learned that its time to grow up, and that’s exactly what I've done and I'm still in the process of doing. I'm not the strongest person, but every trial makes the next one that much easier. I'm not the smartest of the bunch. I always learn things the hard way, and it’s finally all getting through to me. I'm finally a true independent person. I'm not counting on anyone to make me happy and help me get through a hard time, because I've learned that the only person you can truly trust is yourself. And yeah, i learned that the hard way too. I've lost and gained a lot. But honestly, life has lead me to exactly where I'm suppose to be at this point. I believe that with every ending, comes a new beginning. I'm a sweet girl with a huge heart, I'm not easily broken anymore, get to know me.

heartbreak. </3

This one's for the girls with a broken heart. Fuck him! He wasn't worth it if you're sitting there crying. He's not worth it if he cheated on you or broke your heart. Find the guy that makes you smile, hugs you from behind, plays x-box with you, doesn't put you first all the time, the one who will get along with your family, the one who fights with your best friends like he's one of you. Sound crazy? Yeah, well so is love. so just get over it. And if the boy who just broke your heart was like that, well then he showed you what to look for . He may not be the one right now, but he showed you what happiness was, and how much better someone can be. So stop crying. Stop hurting. He's out there somewhere, I promise. ♥

Reality.

You know what? Yes I have changed. I’m not as nice as I used to be, because I don’t want to get used or walked over, I don’t trust everyone and tell them my secrets, because behind every fake smile is a backstabbing bitch. I distance myself from people because in the end, they’re only going to leave. I have changed because I have realized that i’m the only person I can depend on

<3

You know that feeling you get when you're on a roller coaster for the first time? Or you're going too high on a swing? Or you hit some certain bumps on the road and your stomach kinda flips? That's the way I feel when I'm around you. Not all the time, but there's those times when you look at me, or you'll hold me; and I can't even explain it, but that's what I feel.

No regrets.

I never regret anything that has happened to me in my life, wether it is making a bad choice, deciding to do something I shouldnt have, saying the wrong thing or not doing something I should have done...because all of these things have given me the knowledge I have today and helped make me who I am today... and that is one thing I will never regret.

Love.

You are the single most important person in my life. One thing I have come to realize is that love is not always happiness. There are tears, anger, confusion, fears, but at the same time there are smiles, laughter, joys, and understanding. All of those things can happen. That's why love is such an emotional thing. You can feel so many different emotions at the same time. That's why it's so overwhelming. But I know one thing... I would not take back any single thing. Everything that has happened between us happened for some reason. And us being strong and making it through this, it only shows that our love is strong enough to last a lifetime.

Taking chances.

Take chances... alot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up- and with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are... you learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. say how you feel- always . Be you, and be okay with it. It doesn't matter what any other person thinks.